A little update…

So, I know I haven’t posted anything on this in quite a while… Life has been a little insane of late.

As a way to update anyone who still reads this of what has been happening in our life of late, I figured I would post an email sent out to supporters of The Garden last week…

Earlier this week I had a conversation with friend who was talking about marketing slogans that churches and other organizations use to attract people to events. So often the phrase “You don’t want to miss this event” is used… to the point that it begins to lose effectiveness.

I know that in the busyness of life it is easy to push email updates and newsletters aside. I hate to sound trite, but this is an email that I hope that you will not miss… it is the most difficult one that I have had to write thus far.

Since early 2007 many of you have been praying alongside of me about a church plant in the middle of Baltimore City. Many of you have helped to support us with your time, your talent, and your treasure as Joel, myself, and our wives have worked to plant The Garden here in Baltimore. It has been a joy to know that you have joined us on this journey, and your prayers have been a huge reason that we have been able to do much of what our Lord has allowed us to do.

On a more personal note, you have prayed for Theresa and me as we have begun our life together. You have prayed for, and attended, our wedding as well as our marriage as we have grown closer together since June 14, 2008. Many of you prayed with us, and have walked through the ups and downs of this last year and a half. You have prayed us through the passing of Theresa’s mom, her job struggles, and most recently the loss of our unborn child.

I would like to ask you to pray with us once again. Over the last ninety days Theresa and I have been feeling the press of the Holy Spirit to step back from The Garden and enter into a sabbatical period in order to regain our footing after a hard, but wonderful season. While this has been a very difficult decision for us, our God has been gracious to us in giving us an incredible sense of peace during this time of transition.

As I have sat down with members and friends of The Garden, people have asked me whether this is about something more than taking time to regain our balance. While this is an understandable question let me be clear: this is not the result of a sin issue on anyone’s part, nor is it due to a relational issue between Joel and me, or anyone else at The Garden. Theresa and I will always have a soft spot in our heart for The Garden and will continue to support this move of God in the City of Baltimore. It is my hope that you will continue to support her as well.

Many of you are probably wondering what is next for me, work wise. I will be doing a few things. The Baltimore Baptist Association has offered me a part time position serving as the Assistant to the Director of Missions. In this role I will be helping connect churches from across the country with churches in the Baltimore area, and helping them to expand the Kingdom of God here in Baltimore. I will also be working to resource churches, non-profits, and small businesses through a company called PS20 which outsources accounting, and provides other services to churches freeing them up to do the ministry that they are called to. Lastly, I will be continuing to serve as the Baltimore City Director for Surgance, helping bring together groups from many different backgrounds to bring about community transformation.

I would ask that you continue to pray for Theresa and me as we go through this time of transition. I would also ask that you continue to pray for The Garden as she transitions from having two pastors to one. As we move forward, your prayer will be greatly appreciated, and we would love to answer any questions that you may have about this transition.

Thank you again for your continued prayer on our behalf… we greatly appreciate all of you.

Love,

Matt

There you have it… I am planning on starting to post more in here in the near future…

This faith we say we believe…

Often times when I am communicating in a church setting I will use the phrase “this faith we say we believe”, or some variation. From time to time people will ask me why I say that as opposed to just saying “our faith” or something similar. My response varies, but the thought behind it is simple: regardless of what we say we believe, it is the hard decisions that we make that tells whether we truly have faith or not. I could spend weeks telling people that I believe that the budget that my wife and I are living on is a good thing, but if I were to go and impulsively bye an Xbox tomorrow… what would that say about what I really believe?

This past week Theresa and I spent a few days in Intercourse, Pa. (go ahead, get your snickering done). We stayed at a lovely bed and breakfast and were able to spend some time reliving my childhood at the Strasburg Railroad and checking out some of the Amish country attractions. The highlight of the trip for me was an evening that we spent in the home of a young Amish family.

Over the course of three hours we met the couple and their four children, had dinner, and learned a great deal about Amish culture through conversation, but more through what was unsaid. I was surprised by how badly we have blown the stereotype of the Amish and how, though there are some glaring differences, the Amish are far more like us than not.

The more that I watched and soaked on all that was going on around us, the more that I came to realize that the Amish were doing what The Garden is trying to do in Baltimore. Our heart is to see Baltimore restored through faith based community… the Amish do everything in that faith based community. Reading through some of the books in the library of the bed and breakfast I was struck by a this story:

Some years ago a group of 52 people chartered a bus and came to Holmes County to see the Amish. They had arranged to have an Amishman meet them and answer some of their questions. The first question was, “What does it mean to be Amish?”

The Amishman thought a bit and then he asked a question of his own. “How many of you have TV in your homes” Fifty-two hands went up. “Now, how many of you feel that perhaps you would be better off without TV in your homes?” Again, fifty-two hands went up. “All right. Now, how many of you are going to go home and get rid of your TV?” Not one hand went up!
from The Amish Speak

As I sit in my apartment in Bolton Hill, I can’t help but ask myself “what am I willing to give up for the sake of community?” Am I willing to do away with Twitter, Facebook, and cellphones? Am I willing to rid my life of all the “good” things that get in the way of doing life with our neighbors… or am I so entrenched into this lifestyle that I can’t give them up, even if I tried?

Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that Twitter and Facebook are inherently evil (the jury is still out on the cellphone, however], but I am saying that there are things in my life, and all of our lives that do interfere with our ability to relate well with one another, and develop a healthy sense of community within our churches and other organizations.

So, the question that I am wrestling through right now is two fold:

What, in my life, is getting in the way of developing a healthy, faith based, community?
Am I willing to give that up in order to protect that community?

Thoughts?

Painting a picture of the city…

This weekend I will be headed out to Severn, Md. to visit one of our partner churches. As the Senior Pastor and I spoke about the way that their service will look, we decided that it would be beneficial to paint a picture of Baltimore for a congregation that has a large number of people whose lives have them more connected with Washington, D.C. and northern Virginia.

I found myself wrestling this week with how to accurately describe a city that has been portrayed on The Wire, gained national media attention in the last few months because of a teacher being beaten in class, and has found itself the target of Jay Leno over the last few nights (because of Sheila Dixon’s indictment). How can you clearly cut to the heart of a city that has been identified with badness over the last several years, without over-doing the negative, or blowing smoke about how great this city is?

I think that I might have stumbled upon the way to pull this off. I have posted Langston Hughes’s poem
Harlem: A Dream Deferred before on here, but the more I think about it, the more that I think it is an appropriate description of this city, and her people.

What happens to a dream deferred?

Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore–
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over–
like a syrupy sweet?

Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.

Or does it explode?

I believe that this city is a city of dreamers (not in the condescending way), a city that has hope for what is ahead… but a city that has embraced the cynicism that can only come when promises of great things prove to be empty, where speeches and slogans give warm fuzzies for a short time, but fade quickly when we realize that they are just words designed to whip up a frenzy of hope. A city who wants her government to legitimately lead her into the future, but has accepted the fact that corruption and ethical shortcomings are a way of life around here that will more than likely not change.

The beauty of this city is her stubborn insistence that there is something worth hoping for… and while that hope has been misplaced more often or not there is still something deeply beautiful about this tragically flawed city… something worth hoping for in Baltimore.

As one who has felt a calling to this city for a while, who has felt a deep love for this place, warts and all, it excites me to live amongst people who are hopeful (deeply jaded as we all may be). As I pursue my calling to reconnect people with the Hope that does not fail, to reconcile this city with the Kingdom of God it gives me hope knowing that those who I, and the rest of The Garden, am living amongst are yearning for something that they can truly hope for, for something that they can trust not to abuse their hope… a hope that they can believe in.

And so, I pray that not only can I communicate clearly (in under five minutes) about who this city really is, but also that I can be a part of the movement that gives Baltimore a hope to believe in, a hope that is based on an unchanging God who only speaks when he intends to act, and only promises what he will deliver… A God who desires to be reconciled with this city, and his children here.

rejuveNATION Baltimore

I just posted over at Surgance Central on some exciting things that are coming up this summer… check it out!

7 Days 11 Bodies

We are seven days into the new year, and as of tonight there have been 11 murders in this city. A week ago we heard people proclaiming the fact that we have seen a marked decrease in the amount of homicides in this city. Celebrating how great it was to see murders reduced to a number that has not been seen in this city for years. Amidst all the political backslapping it seems to be forgotten that 236 people are no longer living in this city because their lives were taken by their fellow man.

The politicians can celebrate all they want because only 236 people were killed in 2008… I am doing all I can to keep from weeping.

And now, seven days into 2009, there are eleven fewer citizens in the city of Baltimore.

These last several weeks have been busy ones for T and I. They have been hectic ones for The Garden as we continue to establish ourself as a community of faith in Baltimore. We can celebrate the fact that we have had office/meeting space donated to us, that we have taken all the steps to be recognized as a non-profit, and that we had a new house community launch this evening and have 11 people show up and express excitement about what is going on with The Garden.

But still, in 7 days there have been 11 lives taken.

This morning I had a meeting with the principal of a local elementary school to talk about rejuvenating the appearance of the school. And while there is excitement about what this partnership can be, and where it will head, and how it can benefit so many people… the fact is that this city is still bleeding, and in need of reconciliation.

And so, we continue to ask our Father to bring peace to this city, bring healing to this city, and bring His Kingdom to this city. And we ask that he will allow The Garden to be agents of His restoration as we go about our lives here.

Amen.

If you wouldn’t mind…

Last night T’s mom passed away.

We would appreciate prayers for her, her brother, and her father who lost their mom and wife.

Thanks.

Sometimes life gets a little busy…

Like, say, the last six months.

As T and I continue to settle into this married people thing, we are sometimes a little overwhelmed by things… but then we stop, and we reflect on what has happened over the last six months, and realize that we have done a bunch of stuff.

Besides getting married: I moved, my truck got broken into, I quit my job and started being a pastor again, we started planting a church, T had the worst year end for work that she has had in years, we have been making a bunch of vision casting trips (Jersey and Atlanta), we have had large groups of people through our home twice a week for meals, and then there is all the stuff that I have forgotten. We have been a little busy.

All that to say, sorry for neglecting the three people that read this on occasion.

So, just to give you a quick update on life:

    T and I are doing well. Life is busy but good. We have been married for six months, and she still likes me… and I am finding out more and more how incredible she is. I really DID outdo myself.

    The Garden is starting to take shape. Everyone always says that planting a church is exciting… they weren’t exaggerating. We are seeing people join our little community that we never expected back when Joel and I were dreaming about this thing. We are seeing God take hold of people’s lives and shape them in ways that we never would have imaged. This is pretty dang cool.

    I am spending a bunch of time these days getting our administrative processes in place, hanging out with people that are in process of connecting with us, and getting ready to paint an elementary school this summer (more on that later, but I am PSYCHED about this little undertaking).

    My nephew is crawling.

    God is tinkering with my mind about what the pursuit of holiness is on both the corporate and individual levels… I have a lot more wrestling to do with this one, but this is going to be good.

    While I miss the people I worked with while I was selling cars, I really don’t miss selling cars. I needed the break from church stuff, but I am amazed by how much I missed being in ministry. I am really VERY VERY fortunate.

    It is surprising to me just how much I love Baltimore, and it is heart breaking to see how much this city needs to be reconciled to her creator.

    It is fun to see who God is bringing alongside of me as we dive into this journey.

I have to be brief, I am making fajitas for dinner tonight, but I will be back at this blogging thing in the very near future. Life has calmed enough of late to afford me the time to actually do this again.

No wonder Redskins fans can’t stand the Ravens…

Baltimore and Washington are separated by about forty five minutes (there are some that swear they can do it in 30, but I am going to stick to legal speeds). There are a great many people in the Baltimore area that are Redskins fans (such as myself).

So why is it that the Baltimore Fox station is the ONLY STATION IN THE REGION THAT WOULD NOT SHOW THE REDSKINS GAME TODAY?

The skins DID pull off a nice win over the eagles today… and I got to see the game at a GREAT Redskins bar in Federal Hill: The Sly Fox.

Are you freaking kidding me???

The new bailout bill will cost us $850 BILLION… not the $700 BILLION that the initial bill was to cost.

Why? Lets take a look:

In addition to proposing $100 billion in tax relief, aid to rural schools, and an increase in the FDIC insurance cap to $250,000, the bill includes such earmarks as: $223 million for Alaskan fishermen, $192 million for rum producers in Puerto Rico and the Virgin Islands, $128 million for auto racing — and $6 million for producers of children’s wooden arrows.

Taken from Onenewsnow.com

And this is just what we have been able to find so far!

The economy may be going down the tubes, but at least we are going to get a NASCAR track.

This is why we need a viable third political party.

This one won’t win me any friends…

As I am typing this, I am listening to the tail end of the first Presidential debate. I am pretty much done with this whole election season. I am tired of hearing both candidates listen to a question and then twist their answers to fit their talking points. I am tired of watching Jim Lehrer ask them at least a half dozen times how the financial crisis will affect their presidency without getting a solid, substantiative answer.

For the last several months I have been thinking about the financial mess that we are in as a country, and I have come to what will be a very unpopular decision. I believe that this country needs to let the market fall apart.

Our current economic mess will not be solved by a massive bailout. It will not be solved by the government helping people pay the mortgages that they can not afford. I highly doubt that it can be solved by the government at all. The problem is one of money and how we value it.

Growing up, I had a Great-Great-Aunt Mary who new the value of money. She grew up in the depression years, and learned a great many lessons from it… the biggest was the value of a dollar. Mary never owned a car, and would walk everywhere she needed to go. My mother would take her food shopping once a week, and when I was out of school, I would go with her and “help”. Shopping with Mary would drive me (and my short attention span) up the wall. She would buy things only after analyzing the unit price, and making all sorts of comparisons to ensure that she was buying as inexpensively as possible.

After lunch we would go to Friendly’s for lunch. Mary would buy us lunch, and we would all get the happy ending desserts afterwards (they were free). Mary was a coffee drinker (black), and as we left the table, she would scoop up the half-and-half that the waitress would bring for her coffee. Mary would take the half-and-half home and save them, until she had enough to make cream of potato soup with. In all my shopping trips, I never once saw Mary buy half and half, she would always use the little cups from restaurants.

The ultimate story of Mary’s frugality was something that we discovered after her passing. Mary had left very detailed instructions for us (written on the back of val-pac flyers). We were to purchase the cheapest possible casket, and everything that we did was to be done as inexpensively as possible.

Mary was not what we would consider to be poor. Mary was very well invested, and money was not an issue for her. She was not frugal by necessity, she was frugal because she knew the value of money. She was frugal because she had lived through the tough times, and new the importance of saving.

I tell this story because I believe that we are in a place in the history of this country where money has no value for a large part of our population.

Since the end of the great depression this country has experienced a period of amazing growth, and has seen her economy change from a heavy reliance on the blue collar to a huge dependence on the white collar world. And while there is no one that will say that money comes easy these days, we have not been through a period of late where money comes hard. Over the last several decades we have reverted back to a pattern of living that corresponds greatly with the roaring twenties, and we are living with little financial margin.

Why is this?

I think that there are a few reasons for this, but the biggest is our arrogance. In our arrogance, we have started to believe what Madison Avenue tells us… We have started to believe that we DO deserve the luxury automobile, the big house, and the luxury labels. We have started to believe that it does not matter what the price is, we deserve it… and it will all work out.

This attitude has allowed us to minimize the importance of saving money, because after all we should be seizing the day, we deserve it. And so we find ourselves living lives with no financial margins. Over the years the personal savings rate of this country has been in a nose dive, in recent years a negative rate was not uncommon… meaning that people are spending more than they are making en masse.

And so we stretch ourselves thin… buying the big house with a mortgage payment that we can just afford (if nothing happens), buy the car with the shiny name plate (seriously, I deserve a BMW), and the huge flat screen lcd tv (because the 32 inch regular set just doesn’t cut it). We do this while leaving next to nothing in reserve, and then we wonder why we can’t pay our bills when gas prices start creeping up.

If nothing else, those who lived through the great depression came away with an understanding that the future was uncertain, and they needed to prepare for the unexpected. They needed to stash some money away just in case they lost their job, or the economy tanked again. They did not buy the large house just because they could, they bought the house that was practical, the one that did what they needed it to do. They didn’t buy an Escalade because it was popular, they bought a Ford Focus because it was reliable, good on gas, and did what they needed it to do.

We have lost this, and we need to regain it.

Unfortunately, the only way that I can see us becoming a nation that values money… a nation that embraces the idea of thriftiness, is to experience an economic collapse.

It will hurt.

Badly.

But I am convinced that the American people are resilient, and we will bounce back from it smarter, and stronger than ever.