Wandering with Reckless Abandon

New Year’s Eve has always intriqued me… I have never known what to make of it, and it has always seemed like a colossal let down to me. All of the build-up so that we can count backwards from ten and then go along with our lives…

At the same time, it would seem that New Year’s Eve was custom built for introspection and self examination. What better time is there to look back over the course of the days, weeks, and months that have gone by; making amends as needed, and reflecting on hard decisions rightly made.

For me, this has been a year that has provided me with more than enough to reflect on: leaving the students, leaders, and friends that I loved and cherished in New Jersey, embarking on a temporary(?) new career in car sales, relationships ended and begun, and other stuff that I am sure I am forgetting.

Last year at this time, I never would have imagined that I would be living in Parkton again… never would have thought that I would be out of ministry for a season… and while all of this change is/was unexpected, at the same time I see the move of God in it all.

I look back at the timing of all of this, right down to the day I moved, and see why I was here… my mother’s health issues, my grandmothers health issues, and most recently my father’s health issues… My being here allowed me to help in the maintaining of some degree of normalcy during these trials…

I have also seen how God has begun to heal my heart over the last six months. Last year at this time I was depressed, burned out, and beat up… yet God has begun to heal this over the last six months… opening me up to greater moves of His spirit…

I have no clue what this next year will hold, I have no clue how long I will be selling cars, or if and when I will return to ministry… But I go into this year excited for the continued move of God in my life, and thankful that I am once again able to see and embrace it…

and so, here is to 2007… may we all pursue our father headlong, with reckless abandon.